Positive Birth Stories and Testimonials
Don’t Take Just our Word For it
My thank you to my hypnobirthing teacher and friend!
5 years ago, I had an emergency c-section to keep me and my baby safe and alive whilst pregnant at 30 weeks due to severe preeclampsia. From that day on I was an avid fan of c-sections, the whole process, the reasons they are needed and even the recovery to a point (although I only had to look after myself as I had no other children and my new little baby was being cared for on neonatal).
Fast forward 4.5 years and finding out I was lucky enough to be pregnant with another little rainbow baby on the way. Straight away, I was all for the c-section. Straight forward, I’d had one before, I knew what was coming and that was the end point, discussed and agreed with my consultant at my 13 week appointment. 39 weeks was going to be the end point due to the risks of my pregnancy and it would be a c-section as I didn’t want an induction for my own personal choices and risks of rupture to previous scars.
As the pregnancy progressed, I started feeling more inclined to want to try a natural birth. I don’t know why, some people said I was mad but they were the people who had all had the opportunity to do it and could rightly so, have their opinion. But I hadn’t had that opportunity and I wanted to form my own opinion. So further down the line, my consultant and I agreed that 39 weeks was c section BUT if I did go naturally myself before then, we would let nature take its course.
I decided to do everything exactly as if I was definitely having a ‘natural’ birth. Including attending This Mum Liverpool’s hypnobirthing classes. They were quite close to my planned section date (5 days before due date) and with a week to go, 2 sessions of hypnobirthing left, I became really emotional and deflated as I realised how important trying to have a natural birth was to me and the opportunity was slowly slipping away. I decided to continue with the hypnobirthing anyway as in a nutshell, I just LOVED it! The knowledge it gave me of why things happen in birth, natural pain relief and how to work this alongside any choices I make regarding medical pain relief, the science behind everything, the understanding of how to make affirmations work for me whether it was c-section or natural birth and genuinely just gave me an outlet to ask anything about birth! It became real, I was armed with the information I needed for any outcome and the biggest quote I came away with which became my mantra was ‘what are my choices?’. So important for a pregnant lady!
Fast forward to the morning of elective gentle c section, 4 days after my final hypnobirthing session, I woke up at 5:45am ready to go into hospital. In a weird twist of fate, my waters went at that precise moment! The excitement was unreal! At the hospital an hour later, they confirmed my waters had broken and if I wanted a vaginal birth (VBAC), they could give me some options. One option is to wait 24 hours as 60% of women go into natural labour within this time. However, my blood pressure was rising and rising, so if I didn’t go into labour within 24 hours, the safest way to deliver the baby with my high blood pressure would be c-section anyway. I did not want to lose my one chance to have a natural birth.
The other option was to help speed labour along with the use of the syntocinon drip. I was on my way but this would push things further along. Armed with the knowledge that this drip is an extremely strong artificial form of oxytocin, I knew that I had to stay calm and focused on my hypnobirthing in order to get my hormone levels on par with the amount they were going to put into my body to avoid me going into fight or flight adrenaline mode. I knew I could do it! I was excited to do it!
I was moved to delivery suite, checked at 1:30pm where the cervix was completely closed and the drip was administered. I set up the room as I wanted it, curtains closed, tea lights around the room, asked my husband and mum to be calm and quiet, asked for a birthing ball to keep active and had my baby playlist playing in the back ground which took me back to my most relaxed states in the bath throughout my pregnancy. This Mum had also provided me with recordings of two different versions of affirmations. Ones for gentle c section but now I needed the ones for a vaginal birth. I breathed through 5 hours of the latent phase, bouncing on my ball, keeping calm and quiet even though the surges were coming constantly and intensely.
At 6:30pm, I asked to be checked. From hypnobirthing I knew that what the midwife could tell me was where I was up to right then in that moment, not how long it was going to take. I was 1cm. Again, armed with the knowledge of all forms of pain relief and using the question ‘what are my options?’ I opted for a diamorphine injection to give me some opportunity to rest between the constant surges and relax even further. I knew that it would be out of my system before the baby was born and not effect the baby.
I went into such a relaxed state that 2 hours later when the diamorphine wore off, the surges became extremely intense. I said my positive affirmations in my head right the way throughout each surge which provided me with a positive distraction. I felt the need to bear down! ‘Surely not as I was only 1cm 2 hours ago’. But it was true! I had fully dilated and was ready to birth my baby. My eyes stayed closed, I was in my zone in my head, the darkness surrounding me, tea lights still flickering, music still playing I birthed my baby 45 minutes later. It was such an unbelievable feeling of happiness and I was so proud of myself, my husband, our baby, that we were able to do it! We were so so happy with our choices and my mum could not stop repeating that she had ‘never seen anything like it’ with regards to hypnobirthing. We can’t thank This Mum enough for preparing us so well and we will be back if we are lucky enough to ever grow our family again. What an amazing journey topped off with a gorgeous bundle of joy!